child i will hurt you

I haven't posted here in weeks. 2 weeks ago was a really good week and I just want it all back.
I'm seeing Crystal Castles this Thursday. Pretty much all I've been listening to is CCIII. Last week was fun as well. I met my friend Warlock from Australia in town last Wednesday and on Saturday I saw Adam Ant. He's amazing live. For some idiot reason I brought my Young Parisians single so I could get it signed and I waited outside during the encore. He didn't turn up, but I don't mind. I generally had fun.

I just can't be bothered to write today, so I'm doing a stream of consciousness thing.
The extended cut of the Petals video which I spoke about in my last entry is out today. It's supposed to be a bit more graphic than the other one. For some reason I just can't seem to bring myself to be able to sit down and watch it past the first 30 seconds, probably because I'm so protective of Gary... and I haven't even met him yet, which is a bit pathetic of me. I'd better shut up.
I have no money. I need to buy a packer. I need to buy a packer. I need to buy a packer. I'm so fucking lonely. I miss Alyce. I miss her. I miss her. I wish she was still here. I wish she was still here. I need to buy a fucking packer.
One of the learning support assistants at my college said I should draw something fab and give it to Gary when I meet him in two weeks. I'd like to, but I don't know if I can. I'm a nervous wreck as it is but when it comes to my art I'm just so unconfident about it and it kills me because I can't really make good art. Good art is bravery and confidence, it flows nicely, it has good anatomy, it is free. My art is completely the opposite. My art is not good art. Everything I do is bad.

Why have I started talking about Gary Numan on a first-name basis? What the fuck? Who am I? I just can't do this anymore.
I'm just rambling on and on, excuse me. I don't want this entry to be too short so I'm just talking crap.

I want to meet a nice girl at the Crystal Castles concert on Thursday who I can lie in the park with on winter nights listening to Child I Will Hurt You.
The weather is nice.