milkwater [SELF HARM MENTION TW]

I'm going to see The Cure in 3 days and I'm very excited but also very anxious at the same time. My birthday was good and I joined a band. That's all I've got to report.

I float in and out of disinterest. Here are some pictures of me right now



I'm not human, I don't think. I'm rainwater, vomit, a mattress stained with piss and tears. I wish there was a girl and we could tie locks of our hair together, then I wouldn't feel so unlike myself. Right now I'm milkwater, pale and muted
sometimes I wish I had more cuts and was in the hospital
Wow, I remember one time my mum said 'if you cut any deeper the you'll have to go to the hospital' and I kinda wish I did have to go. God. I came down here to get cereal and started writing crap.