day of the lords

It's come to my attention that I haven't posted here in over a month. I'm not really sure why I've been neglecting this blog as of late. Really need to do something about that.

Recently I have seen Les Misérables six times now, bought Unknown Pleasures by Joy Division and The Messenger by Johnny Marr (who I will be seeing live next week), shaved off the sides of my head, went to Only After Dark in February and met a girl called Amy who is just as obsessed with Les Mis as I am, and some other things I can't really remember. But on Friday it's Gary Numan's birthday and I'll be seeing My Bloody Valentine on the same day, then the day after that is my 19th birthday! It's a bit scary. I never thought I'd live to be 19. I'm glad I've never attempted suicide so far because there's a lot of concerts I'm going to this year.

My Bloody Valentine: 08.03.2013
Johnny Marr: 16.03.2013
Swans: 01.04.2013
Lana Del Rey: 13.05.2013

That's all I've got so far. But I'm really excited!

I've got a vague of idea of what I want to do for my public art unit. I might make a mural based around LGBT things, with equal focus on sexual orientation and gender identity, mostly because I feel the T in LGBT is barely mentioned in LGBT awareness discussions, etc. The funny thing about being the only transgender student at my college is the constant sense of loneliness and isolation I feel from my peers, because even though they respect me I can barely relate to them. Yeah, by funny I mean depressing. The outside world is a lot less kind. I don't pass and there isn't a lot I can do about that, and I'll never find anyone who will love me for who I am. I'm just an accessory, something that people can use to prove their "acceptance" towards what they barely understand.
I like cats better than humans because cats will snuggle up to me and purr and nuzzle me even if I'm a complete twat. Cats like me because I'm nice to them and I give them food and pet them and they're my best friends.

I bought black hair dye the other day. My roots need doing.